by Natalie Kawai | Aug 10, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
The other day, a good friend of mine said to me:
I am not coming from ego, I am self-confident!
That got me thinking.
To be self-reliant definitely feels powerful. We can think we come from a deep centered place but is it real? Let’s examine.
To be fully confident, we have to know ourselves, we have to be whole. To be whole we have to own all the consciousness there is. Since we lost a chunk of it upon incarnating, we start our journey lacking a portion of this precious substance. And the journeys of our life are precisely offered for us to conquer this lost substance, so that we can realize it consciously.
In the beginning we have replaced the lost consciousness by ego and patterns; it is our human challenge. Away from self, ego has invariably set in. Its role is to compensate the distance. The flaw of this system is that it keeps us separated from the wholeness of our Consciousness.
Ego will dupe you to believe that you are in self-confidence.
We have lived with ego for so long… it is so deeply intertwined in our subconscious layers that we are attached and hold on to it for dear life!
Ego is trained to make you feel good about yourself, because it has been its role forever. Wanting to keep its position, it makes you think you are powerful, centered and altogether in the mastery of your life. And to a degree it’s true. You can create what you want from ego, the only problem is that if you feel good, it will only be conditional and temporary; you will always have to find something better to make you feel good again, to top it all. It becomes the pursuit of more, because there is a missing part inwardly that cries to compensate with more outwardly.
Ego is here to make you think that your good has to improve. There is a missing part in you that calls you and makes you feel always incomplete; no matter what happens around, how much money you have, how much power you dispose of, how much love you receive. It’s never enough.
Being steered by ego is our predicament, because it has become entrenched in our fibers, in our DNA, and we don’t realize its presence anymore. A favorite ego strategy is to make us think we are whole and therefore confident, when in fact we are satisfying our ego demands in disguise.
Self-confidence can only exist in the totality of our presence, which means that if you are lacking a part of you, it will be replaced by ego. That’s a law in humanity. If we are self-confident from an ego position, then we are in an illusionary confidence. We carry forth ideas and creations that transmit that lack of wholeness, keeping us and others in the same mode, over and over.
The story line changes, but the plot is the same.
Life-styles improve but inside, the same wounds are still open.
Self-confidence coming from ego feels squeaky. The problem is that we learned to deny the squeakiness, attached to feeling safe instead of exploring further.
Questions: Are you ready and bold enough to examine where you are coming from?
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About Natalie Kawai
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of 
Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 9, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
We are divine energy and are creators by essence. There are two levels of manifestation: one is coming from the thoughts and emotions filtered with parasites, or programs, and the other is coming directly from Source or true Self. It is difficult to make the difference between our patterns and our Source since we are in a state of confusion between the two. We think we want something and because our sense of self is tied up with that idea, we apply our energy to create that thing or situation we want.
Since we are a creative energy flowing device, we can manifest through that pathway of the mind. Energy goes where we direct and focus it. This can nevertheless induce more confusion between the two plans of our reality: to be and to have, or here and there. We want something from a place of lack of Self, then we create that something there in the 3-D world and feel happy to a degree but it wears off.
If there is a definite satisfaction coming with that replacement, it is only temporary because we still long for the underlying real thing “true Self or being”, not yet fully recovered. We can get stuck in this distractive and more or less happy state, on our way to our Source. We can go for a long time with this process, going from one creation to another, always hoping that the next one will bring us “happiness”, will make us feeling more whole and fulfilled.
Once connected to our Source, upon doing the work of transmutation, we shift from replacing our parts and trying to feel whole with stuff in the world; being identified with “I manifest therefore I am”, to truly feel whole. Then creation flows easily, because nothing is in the way anymore. We create from Source, from the heart instead of from our thoughts embedded with ego. We create from an energy that is deeply rooted in being. No programs, no patterns to dictate us what to want. We are in the most magnetic place of the whole creation and attract naturally.
Manifesting from our heart will be the next step of our human experience in the up-coming era. This New Era is about implementing our masculine and controlling data with a more intuitive and nurturing quality: the emotional and feminine energy, shut down for eons. We will then find respect and balance with all lives.
Questions
- Your quest is sincere but you feel stuck?
- You want to feel your Source and experience some difficulty?
- You creations bring you happiness but you still don’t feel fulfilled?
Let’s talk! I can’t wait to meet with you in your discovery, no-obligation session, where we’ll look together in what you feel and desire. Feel free to connect: info@nataliekawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
by Natalie Kawai | May 2, 2016 | Blog, Uncategorized
Ego is an energy entity, much like a person. It was born, grew in force and experience, and over time, developed strong characteristics of control and survival. Establishing its supremacy over us in a sly and solid strategy, it moves its puns on the game, in a systematic and under cover approach.
Its role is to preserve the newly found coherence of the identity we desperately try to restructure, after having lost a lot of our substance or consciousness through the “big bang” of creation.
The ego is necessary. Without it, we would still be scattered in limbo. We wouldn’t be able to have a form. Remember, after having exploded, we hastily recompose a semblance of our lost coherence, taping into the pool of fear-based thoughts all around, and patching up the holes with this replacement material. This new identity had to be kept together, tight and solid, and this is how the ego came to birth. The ego is like a membrane that has formed around our energy. It surrounds and keeps the integrity of the new cell we rekindled to survive, and go about our journey out of Source.
We put it in place, we created it and then, like everything that is given birth in this universe, it started to take on a life of its own. The energy of the ego is not coming from a dark zone, it is just energy, energy that wants to survive. Itʼs been assigned a role to begin with: the defense of the new found identity, which includes the patterns that have replaced our true self. And itʼs doing a really good job by not letting us easily free ourselves from this entity we have become. Its function is to do all it can to preserve the mold we assembled, and are entrapped into. Since we have been with our “ego” from day one of creation, it is well aware of our psychology and the least meander of our character, and therefore knows to perfection how to exploit them!
Everything in this universe is created from the very single Original Energy, and develops different traits and characteristics along the way. Away from its starting point, any energy entity will more or less severely stray, and experience outside the realm of its provenance. It will lose its remembrance and develop a renegade nature. It will think that it has become the master in command and will find a sense of self and power in a caricature of truth instead of truth. Spinning its wheels in an artificial land, it is doomed to collapse, when the light of truth finally comes back and shines over its shadows!
In the case of our personal ego, the power and full hegemony that it exerts upon us will only last until one wakes up from the illusion and starts to build up true power, regaining consciousness in the momentum of ongoing and dedicated work. Then the ego will be blocked in its track by the presence of self. The programs squatting the space will have to go and the keeper will have nothing to keep anymore! The ego will be on strike and at this point will convert back into a purer energy. That energy will still surround our cells, as a vibrational membrane to maintain our physical form, so that we can continue to experience our Source from the perspective of our incarnation.
Knowing that the ego is trained to be the keeper of the artificial order within, assuring the interim in the temporary absence of our Consciousness is good, but itʼs not enough to conjure up its intricate organization and dominance. This pseudo order within having become what we think we are, we will defend it and therefore enforce our ego.
It will feel safer for a while to operate from the old ego paradigm, but then as the soul evolves, it will become imperative to seek for truth, like air to breathe! At this stage, a person will look for ways to regain self and through implacable practice, will retrieve the lost consciousness. There will be an awkward passage, haunted by a lot of fear, where one will lose its bearings and step into the void without a net. The dissolution of the patterning, along with the backing down of the ego is very challenging since we functioned in this pseudo order forever. As fake as it is, that system is what we know and even outdated and dysfunctional, it feels safe and we are attached to it.
The ego is that voice inside that doesnʼt want things to change. It makes us feel that change is highly dangerous and we better off maintaining status quo. So stubbornness is one of the favorite weapons of the ego. It will also make us feel victimized by other people or situations so that we stay as far away from our power as we can.
Discouragement, doubt, boredom, sense of being defeated, incapable, unworthy, not good enough, too shy, too short, too old, too whatever, “I canʼt”, “I donʼt have the time”… and so forth are all part of the panoply of ego strategies to maintain status quo and disable a person to find their true self. Stepping in the unknown is challenging, no question about it, but the unknown is the place where instead of losing ourselves, we actually find ourselves! In the vastness of what we donʼt know lies the dormant consciousness that we so long for. By stepping into it, we create a bridge toward our very Self!
Dealing with the ego though is not dealing with the enemy; itʼs dealing with a part of us that has been assigned a function for the longest time and does not remember where it is coming from and where it belongs. It has become identified with its role. It is not about laying siege to the ego until it capitulates, itʼs about re-owning Self until the ego has nothing to fight for anymore, no pseudo structure to defend. It can then be recycled into the energy that it came from: Source.
Questions:
- A voice keeps nagging you in devaluing your true potential
- Feel at time discouraged, bored, defeated, unworthy
- Holding off, procrastinating, feeling stubborn
- Then your good old ego is holding the deck too tight
Time to establish more of YOU in the game so that you can be the master and play your card, instead of it playing you!
Feel free to book your discovery no-obligation session with me. I can’t wait to talking to you!
info@NatalieKawai.com
About Natalie
Spiritual Teacher and revolutionary thought leader, Natalie Kawai is a messenger of the Great Mother of Creation. She champions the rise of feminine energy. This part of our presence having been denied from time of creation, we feel that something is missing. Time to return to wholeness and enjoy fulfillment beyond conditional happiness. Born on the shore of lake Geneva Switzerland, she now calls Hawaii her home! Her passion is to guide people to ultimate fulfillment, beyond all ego. She also is a music composer and an artist.
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